This is, for all those who out of their busy lives, miss out on "something" in their life ..
Some, who miss out on showing their feelings to loved ones..
Some, who miss out on laughing loud on silly things ...
And Most importantly , Some, who miss themselves, who miss being passionate ..
You definitely need to ""change"" according to the change that has come in your lives.
It happens with everyone of us - When we see people perform things finely (Which , we secretly know we can do better than them ) . Watching them for an instance, we feel a bit jealous and irritated.
Its natural , Its Obvious.
Same situation occurred with me during an Institute event.
There was this irritating girl Richa who stood up to give a speech on "Women's day" .
Irritating - Because she always behaves extra sweet, extra buttery, extra overwhelming, extra polite, extra Whatever ... I find such people fake.. Eyyyuuuuuu ...
She had a good impression of hers everywhere since she stepped into the University. ( And in my mind, I always knew that she's just an average girl, just that she is free, so gets to involve in things [Normal Girl -To- Girl Jealousy factor, YOU KNOW ;)])
She started off her speech little panicky. ( Ahhhhhhh, Ofcourse I'm a better Speaker than her).
Slowly and steadily her speech started becoming little little interesting .. In that course of time, I didn't realize the fact that I was ACTUALLY listening patiently to her without making any unnecessary false comments in my mind ( But actually, she had worn a dress that didn't suit her, She was trying to speak extra sweetly to get sympathy from people, Her accent got irritating at moments .... Arrrghhhhh ..)
But eventually these thoughts also vanished, and I was totally engrossed in simply listening to her.
Deep down, there felt a little guilt in me.. What if I'm so busy in my life that I don't get to speak in public, it doesn't mean that others wont speak too. At least others are taking out time for it.
Its my fault that I gave up on doing the thing I loved the MOST - "Speaking " ...
It is was my passion. It was my talent.
And today , watching someone else speak nicely, I so much MISS MYSELF ... I so much miss that time when I used to be a Star ..( I can consider myself a Star currently too, But that would be too overboard, so I skip it)
So ...
As soon as that Silly Girl's ACTUALLY effective speech ended.
I had a smile on my face. And I realized that even though people outside are more talented than you, ,more smart than you... If you JUST be YOURSELF, not give up on your passion and stay pure in your thoughts. You'll definitely be valued too.
For that , You should first learn to appreciate other people for their talents.
I stood up from my place to congratulate her for her speech heartily. ( For that I waited 20 minutes for her to get free , BUSY GIRL ;)). She truly spoke well.
AND , Before letting my mom taunt me by praising her . I went up and said "Mumma what a speech Richa gave, Very nice na"...
[REASON FOR DOING THIS]
Even today when my mom hears someone else speak well .. Her sarcastic reaction would be : ""Everyone comes out and delivers such tremendous speeches , EXCEPT my daughter "". She'd scold me for not flaunting my talent too much in public. And I'd always give my set of reasons, and end up taking out flaws in others ( There's no other way out to win my mom in a Conversation ;) )
At the end I said - " Mom , just give me sometime. A correct moment will come, when your daughter will shine too "...
My Mom - "You have all the time in the world beta "
Bottom line of the story ..
At some point of time you need to change things. You cannot simply keep dreaming that things will sort down by themselves. You've got to work in Reality for yourselves, and then the world is yours..
That's what my poetry states below :
Miracles are those dreams
that are not even dreamt off
But the dreams and real
together stay sign off..
World is all together
different when you change your view
As life needs both, the cast
and the crew..
Be crazy,to stay different
where everyone is different
But be weak enough to let
out your heart..
So let the matured you Speak
,And let the child you live..
B'coz there are no retakes to
Relive ...
